It has been a looooooooooooooooooooooooong time since I last sat down in front of the comp and blogged without worrying about a big pile of overdue homework waiting for me in some corner of my room.
And it has been a looooooooooong time since I'm home on a friday night. I'm usually on the friday night shift at the restaurant.
I have not felt this relaxed in a loooooong time.
Well..today has been a really ok day. For once, not even he can irritate me. Cos he said something about literature and was boasting about how he was getting better and better at it, and I just shot back at him "I'm still the highest in class, you haven't beat me in literature yet." the look on his face- priceless. Oh, I'm still laughing.
The highlight of the day-result slips. Gee, how exciting. Despite what mdm lim had said, I don't think that I've improved at all. I am not proud of my results. And in case you haven't noticed, the only reason I didn't fail my combined humanities is because gomez only counted in the open book test results, and not the recent test on population growth. (I'm bound to flunk it. I didn't study) I got a C on my report card, a grade that never appeared on my results for the whole of last year. It's devastating, a C. Screw my chinese. I did not get any 70+++. Thoroughly disappointed. Did not manage an A in english as well. I felt as if I have let mdm lim down. I feel so useless. Don't even get me started on my mathematics. I need tuition. BADLY. Any tuition teachers out there willing to go through cumalative frequency with me? As well as the whole mean, median, and mode shit? And I was sooo confident that I could get an A for my F&N. I was wron apparently.
So anyway...here is what appeared on that sheet of paper that spells DOOM: English-61.0 Chinese-55.0 Mathematics-60.0 Science(phy,chem)-85.2 Combined humanities(s.s,geo)-82.0 Literature-84.0 Food and Nutrition-67.5
Remarks: Sophie writes very well and speaks confidently and effectively. She is a sensible and conscientious student. She ought to keep up with the effort so that she can acheive outstanding results.
I'm not sure about that. I'm not sure about all this. I'm on the brink of freaking out. I'm having regular panic attacks. I need prescribed pills to offset the shakes. I talk to my make-believe vampire friends. I sing to myself. I have nightmares about o levels. I'm turning very paranoid.
I'm going bonkers. I'm THIS close to having a mental breakdown.
I knew this year is going to be tough, but no one told me it is so nerve wrecking.
I'd hate to disappoint my parents. I have never done anything to make them proud before. I want to see happy smiles on their faces when I show them my results next year.
THE girl
Sophie Hong
15 going on 16
28 dec
ROCK CULTURE
Piss off if you don't like me, I won't grieve over the loss
