I know I said I wanted to chiong my coursework, but I ended up not doing anything productive today. I came home only to flop on the bed and slept the afternoon away. Oh gosh, I suck.
But at least, I printed out some maths papers from moodle to do tonight.
See? I'm making an effort in my damned education.
And I think I shall do social studies. Make some notes and stuff.
Science practical was so screwed up today. I read off the ammenter wrongly. They said that the highest value is 1A, but I read off as 2.6A, when it should have been like, freaking 0.26A
Shit it. And I can't download the Timbaland featuring Fall Out Boy song. I'd love the person who is willing to buy me Shock Value from Timbaland. Not the most, cos that'd be reserved for the person who's buying me the Panic! At the Disco's album coming out later this year. ((:
Shall go back to studying now. Bye.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Oh no....my brenny bear got a tattoo for his 20th birthday prezzie!!!
BAD BOY!!!!!
And I find it kinda ugly. Sorry Brendon, but I don't like you now that you got yourself inked!!!!!!!
WHY OH WHY OH WHY?!?!?!?!? YOU USED TO BE SUCH A SWEET MORMON BOY WHO'S STILL A VIRGIN!!!!!!
Excuse me for my hysteria, but OH MY GOODNESS, BRENDON URIE GOT HIMSELF A STUPID UGLY TATTOO!!!! HE SHOULD STOP HANGING OUT WITH PETE WENTZ!!!!
Pfft. Stupid Pete Wentz. Bad influence on my sweet, innocent, Brendon. At least, you should convince Brendon to get a sexier tattoo right?!?!?! Like a tattoo of a bat like you had on your pelvis or the NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS one right?!?!?!?!
THE POINT IS, GET SOMETHING SEXIER AND BEFITTING OF HIM INSTEAD OF A FUGLY pisssshh.... We should go beat up the tattoo artist or something. He should like, totally warn Brendon against getting THAT tattoo and going for something....nicer.
It's still healing and stuff but you see!!!!!! NOT NICE!!!!!
T_T
And Mr Ryan Ross, DON'T even think about getting yourself inked like brendon. At leats, get something sexy at SOMEPLACE sexy unlike Brenny who got it at his forearm. Like, WTF??
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE SWEET AND INNOCENT BRENDON URIE!!!
Oh no.....T_T
Saturday, April 28, 2007
One of the movies that I MUST watch this year, is Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix.
And I'm looking forward to everything in it, the Harry and Cho kiss, the thingy going on between Hermione and Ron, Dorlores Umbrigde, Luna Lovegood,Fred and George Weasley.....EVERYTHING. And guess what? I think I'm gonna like Bellatrix Lestrange. The actress playing her is seriously good. I think that this is one character that is really fun to play. ((: And I love the hair and the clothes. And the tons of eye make up. ((: So goth. This picture is not really nice. You should go check out the video.
And Draco Malfoy. ((: The handsome blond english guy. ((:
Here's the making of. Sorta.
Friday, April 27, 2007
TOTALLY GOT MURDERED BY ENGLISH
Enough said.
And how the fuck am I supposed to know what REPUGNANT means?!?!?!?!? I kinda mistook it for PUNGENT and I wanted to write down that the whole illegal organ market thing was smelly.
Can't blame me. Raw meat will smell right?!?!?!?!?
And my composition, call me morbid, but I wrote about death. Again. I'm going to worry the teachers sick till they check themselves in for therapy.
So...tell me more about why you are feeling so stressed...
Oh, I don't know..it's just that I have this student and she's well....wierd. She's really dark and sardonic and her writings are...well...always very disturbing and morbid...I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!! EMO KIDS DRIVE ME NUTS!!! *hurtles self off the building*
Ahh well. There goes my english. FWWWHHHHHHHHOOOOMMMMM WHHHHHHHEEEEEE KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BBBIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BBBBBBOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMM and bye bye, there goes my A1.
LONG LIVE THE CAR CRASH HEARTS!!!!!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
4EC, let's kick the other classes' asses in the mid year examinations and do out 'mother' proud.
Starting with english tommorrow. ((:
The guys of 4EC on the right together with some 4N guys on the left.
And some of the sweet ladies from 4EC ((: the one flashing the bat sign is yours truly.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
The Phantom of the Opera was....wow. Live theatre performances always excite me, so who cares if we were in circle three. The ambience and everything, the whole experience was just..fantastic.
I love the exquisite costumes, the detailed props, the live music, and just about everything, really. And the sound and special effects were just mind blowing. You can really see the passion the cast has for the show. And Raoul is hot. ((:
And well, its the first time seeing the guys in class so smartly dressed. And I must say they've conducted themselves well. Teck Li takes home the comedian of the night award, because he's just hilarious like that. First he thought the Ferris Wheel was a windmill, then he went furthur and said that it was a roller coaster that "go one round [loop] only". And then he had to fall off the railing at the place where we took our class photos. I heard that he somersaulted as well before falling on he ground. But kudos to him cos he got up laughing.
Leck Zhi took back the wierd ass of the night award. He was sitting behind me, and he rested his legs on the back of my chair. Excuse me mister, but I don't want to be smelling your sneakers. And the way you sit, with your legs spread open and your crotch above my head, gosh, compromising position indeed. If you want to seduce me, please grow another 10 cm, cos you're shorter than me at the moment. ((:
And for the most good looking guy of the night award....well...I'm torn. They were all so smartly dressed. But I gotta say Jesper looks really nice. And besides, he's like, the few guy who's taller than 170cm in the class. So.
Shall stop here and go study now.
((:
I LOVE 4EC!!!!
And oh, we got a COP for ELDDS. How pathetic. But the day was fun. Ziting, check out your brother with eyeliner. All the guys look like Pete Wentz wannabes that day. *chuckles*
Monday, April 23, 2007
Think I'm sick. I was this close to puking all of what little dinner I have just now. Blerggh.
So went to the old folk's home today with the class for CIP.Bus trip there was uninteresting enough, the highlight being Kiat Wee blowing kisses to some primary school girls who were on another bus.
Old folks and me don't mix well. So there. And while we were singing some chinese song I don't know to them, I don't think they were listening. Some of them even asked some of us to get out of the way cos' we're blocking the tv. How nice.
I'm in no mood to blog much today. Sorry.
Don't say things that you can't undo
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Just for the record, the weather today is slightly sacarstic with a hint of: a) indifference or b) disinterest,in what you have to say.
I just got reminded yesterday the precise reasons why I hate human interaction so much. You see, I was boogled out of my mind with a torturous three hours of stumbling around with maths, and so I hightailed it out of class at the first chance I have. It was a blazing hot day and I don't feel like going home, so I took the bus down to one of my few favourite hangouts since primary school- the library.
You know, I don't buy or subscribe to foreign magazines here, because the shipping costs alone will kill you. But I like to go browse through the music magazines that the library has, and guess what I found?
So I took them, found a seat, and started devouring them. But guess what?
*high pitched voice* EEEKK!!! LOOK!!! PANIC! AT THE DISCO!!! AND FALL OUT BOY!!!! OMG, PETE WENTZ IS TOPLESS!!! SO HOT!!!
I almost fell out of my chair. Gosh, the high frequency of that sound wave alone can trigger tsunamis. Then later....
Gwad, why is she taking so long with the mags!?!?!?! I wanna read!! That bloody woman was hanging around the shelves with her friend, keeping a watchful eye on me so that she can swoop up the magazines the moment I'm done with them. How pathetic can people get?!?!?!?! And me being me, boring life, no thrills, and lots of time to waste away, I plugged into my mp3 and took my time with the magazine.
Finally she got bored and went off. HAH. I win, you lose. ((:
Then there is the bus trip home. I went up the bus and there were this bunch of jocks. Like, you know, loud mouth idiots laughing away, basking in all their tanned toned bod glory. I got up the bus, they stared at me, cos I'm in my school uniform on a saturday with my hair all straight and let down and stuff and my face dead pale and I had on this really my-best-friend-got-murdered expression on. Then they kinda nudged each other and started whispering about emo and blah blah blah the like.
Whatever crawled up their asses and died. *rolls eyes* I took a seat at the back of the bus, and all was peaceful until a stop later this man came up and sat beside me. And promptly fell asleep. He was still asleep when I'm approaching my stop, so I kinda stood up, hoping that my movements will wake him up...but no...no such luck. I was standing there feeling awkward and already those jocks were kinda stifling laughter and staring at me as if I'm some sort of circus freakshow. eat shit and die you dumbasses.
I had no choice, but to hitch up my skirt and climb over the guy's legs. And those jocks really laughed out loud when they saw that, whooped, and made some dirty jokes. Great. But when I walked past them I gave them my death glare.
Hope it'd haunt them forever.
But right now folks, lets take some make up tips from Gerard Way from My Chemical Romance!!!!!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Yes, DEPRESSED. But if they can make it through, so can I.
He didn't exactly have a happy family
But he still keeps on smiling.
He got depression and attempted suicide
But he still keeps on rocking.
His alcoholic dad hit him
But he still believes in love.
And Brendon....well...just because you never fail to put a smile on my face with your rock star antics.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Its cruel. Its very cruel. I'm completely incapable of rational thinking right now.
Sorry to bother you guys with my screwed-up-ness. We all have problems, and I somehow got to learn how deal with them without affecting others.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And my scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help you fix yourself You're making me insane All I can say is
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advice I saw you going down But you never realized That you're drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last stand
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever come around Why don't you just go home? Cause you're drowning in the water And I tried to grab your hand And I left my heart open But you didn't understand But you didn't understand Go fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I feel as if you're singing this song to me. And I'm sorry to have hurt you this way by hurting myself. But you've got to move on with your life and stop letting the past haunt. Cos we've both chosen to walk out of each other's lives.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
You all jolly well knew what had happened. So don't ask me anymore or give me shit about it. And that means not to call me an emobastard as well.
You got that Leck Zhi and Say Yong?
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
For all those feeling emo, cheers, you are not the only one.
You are blasting the stereo again As you lay awake on the bed at half past ten. Breathing but not feeling alive, Getting sick of the shit you have to go through everyday. It's like getting stuck in a mime, Only that you hear words being spoken but no actions taken.
You cry in the dark because no one's there, you self mutiliate because no one cares. The lights are on but you're still Living in the darkness, engulfed by the gloom.
They looked at your bleeding wrists and called you stupid, they saw your notebook and called you dumb. They looked at your grades and shake their heads, they saw you falling down on the ground.
Things are not alright and you're not ok, you don't know why you're still holding on. But the stars in the sky twinkled hope and faith, so just wipe your tears and walk away.
God, my stepmum can be so confusing sometimes. She told me before that I have the right to scold and hit my sister, to discipline her when she's done something wrong. I have never abused this right. Never ever. But just now my sister went to tear a bit off my book, and I scolded her and hit her hand. But just a loght swat, I swear. Then my sister stormed off into the room to sulk, my mum saw my sister sulking and asked me what happened, so I told her. She accused me of not loving my sister. I don't love my sister?!?! That's got to be the most hurtful thing anyone has ever said to me. So now I know. All those while when we were all pretending to be one big family, she is still doubtful of me. Nice to know that. I'm running away. Anyone has any idea where I should go to?
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I so wish that I could say I'm happy for you, but I'm too busy feeling sad for my sorry ass to do anything else.
Sorry.
I am feeling fucked up for a dozen reasons, but none of them made sense at all.
Monday, April 16, 2007
School was insane today. With all that dramatics[and its not during eldds only], I'm surprised that I haven't went crazy and rammed my head against the wall. YET.
All my girlfriends are sad today, for one reason or another,and it really shook me to see both of them crying at the same time. All I can do is just watch the tears roll down their faces, and the best I can offer is a hug.
All the way back home I was trying so damn hard to cheer Jess up. Sure, me and fifi had our fair share of bad mood-y want-to-cry-days, but jess...she's like, our emotional rock. [is that the way you put it?]
Anyways....I had a quarrel with my dad, so I'm fighting a cold war with him right now. Don't ask me about it. All I know is that I didn't shout back at him or slammed my room door in his face last night. No, I just switched off the TV, ran to my room, switch off the lights, and began scribbling away madly on my notebook under the blankets.
The cause? Well, it all started with me eating loads of junk food for meals, and having irregular mealtimes, then he nagged at me for it, till I stopped eating completely, and he was soooo worried that I was anorexic. So now I've started eating again, and he's not happy about it. Yesterday night I was happily tucking into my 2 dollars rojak when he started shouting at me for eating junk food again. And I'm like *blur*.
So yeah. Plus a ton of other things as well, and it all added up to the explosion yesterday. Chris, you should be soooo glad that you don't have a teenager in your household. I admit, teenagers are a helluva bunch to look after.
SYF tommorrow, got to get a good night's sleep, so tata people.
A moment is all you can ever expect from perfection, and I really, really, hope that we can all experience that moment tommorrow onstage.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Gosh, I'm bloody FORCED by my web browser to switch to the new blogger. Pfft.
I have this pain in my neck right now, and I mean it literally. I don't think it's a stiff neck because you get stiff necks from not sleeping properly on pillows, and I just kind of got it suddenly when I'm jumping around the house, headbanging to AFI instead of doing my revision.
Shit. Mid years are so close.
But my troubles just seem so trivial compared to those kids in Africa stuck in a war, torn apart from their loved ones and being unwillingly put right smack in the middle of all the gunfire. So I cannot solve a simple algebric equation, big deal. Those kids are dying from hunger and sickness and they are the witnesses to bloodshed everyday. Just take a look at this.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
I wish I could react the way like Gerard Way did in this video if I ever got back a test or an assignment with an F. But sad to say, I'd probably go overdose on sleeping pills or something. I wish I could stop being so uptight, but I can't. Its my o level year and I'm still kinda stumbling around in the dark. I feel that the only reason I can get answers correct is because I tripped upon them accidentally. On the taxi home yesterday Ian was boasting about how he got an A1 in maths last year but failed everything else. Tien Ee was saying something about always having two subjects underlined in his report card. [which means you fail the subject] Then they asked me about my results. I said I've never failed anything last year and never got anything below a C.
The looks on their faces....gosh. But to tell the truth, I'm jealous. I wish I could be as carefree as them, but I can't. Ian pointed out that if you cannot get in anywhere in singapore, there is always the option of flying over to the states. I don't have that option. I'm not as rich as he is. I really need to do well this year, but its all looking bleak. Maths teacher is forever missing, and we're falling behind other classes. Food and Nutrition is screwed, and I don't understand a thing at all in Science, which is one of my stronger subjects.
I don't think I can make it through this year alive. Either I am going to worry myself to death, die from paronia, or chopped to pieces by my parents.
Oh yeah, my parents think I'm anorexic. They say I don't eat much nowadays and I'm often skipping meals. Truth is, I can't keep anything down my throat anymore. The pressure is making me throw up everything I eat.
Friday, April 13, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDON URIE!!!!
[supposed to type this yesterday, but what the heck, I forgot.]
I'm too tired. And too pissed to do anything now. So pictures as I promised from the sushi fest. [my stack of plate is the highest!!!! ((:]
And this is Daryl. He's still as cute as ever.
ELDDS was better today. Fooled around at the costume shop with Tien Ee, Tiffany, and Ian. Took taxi back with Tien Ee and Ian while Tiffany went to get make up. DAMN BLOODY TIRED.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
There is just something about this picture that is so wrong. And yes Jess, Patrick Stump is just the cutest.
Sports Day today.
Slacked, ate twisties, ate candies, called up macdonald's delivery[pat did, not me], ordered fries, ate them with chilli.
That's all. Then went to suntec, walked past what used to be country manna restaurant. It's all boarded up now. Anyway, turned around and looked at the familiar sight of the fountain of wealth. How many afternoons I had spent there grumbling while giving out flyers to snobbish passers-by. I'd do anything to be able to do that again. And the walkway, how many busy nights I have been balancing cups and plates, weaving in and out of the people walking past to serve the customers. How many times I have to be reminded to keep my shirt tucked in neatly. *chuckles*
Went to pig out at Sakae Shusi. I just love sushi. But the waiter there is dumb. We told him that we wanted desserts later after the meal, but he gave it to us even before our udon is served. Which led Jessica to conclude that she and the waiter are not on the same wave and don't click, so she looked fervently around the restaurant for other waitstaff, but turns out that he was the only one in sight.
We totally pigged out. Well, actually, only me and Jessica, cos fifi only wants her avocado. Kinda cleaned out the sushi there, and Jessica totally finished all the Toma-whatever -you-call-that- sweet-egg-thing in sight. Then she went and requested for more.
The empty plates were stacked sky high, me and Jessica ate like, eight plates each+udon+watermelon+2 strawberry kisses+ countless cups of green tea. Halfway through the meal, I felt my skirt getting uncomfortably tight [I don't know why but my skirt is kinda tight, even for me. Think I got the wrong size], and as I had PE shorts underneath, I whipped off my skirt in the middle of the restaurant. The look on Jessica's face-priceless. And even fifi was giggling at me in disbelief.
Wanted to post pics up, but jess is not online, so she can't send me the pics. Oh well. Next time.
Look what I found!!! Joakim Gomez, Jasmine Tye, and my favourite local emo guy-MISTER PAUL TWOHILL!!!!!! Quirky kookie paulie waulie!!!!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
First Try
This town just wasn't made for two But when the streets they call my name, what can I do? There's a place I'd like to visit there someday And if you decline my invitation, what can I say? What can I say? What can I say?
When the corner light is dimmed on the street And all the faces looked confused on those you meet Tell your friends that I'll be dead when you read this Tell them I couldn't take the pain of loneliness Of loneliness Of loneliness
I am feeling low And I'm singing in my sleep when you're around, will you comfort me? I'll dream of you And the smile that you give, to me You give to me You give to me
It's the same thing everyday Because we run out of things to say If you're gone and me not here It kind of sheds a different light on the whole year On the whole year On the whole year
I am feeling good And I'm singing in my sleep when you're around, will you comfort me? I'll dream of you And the smile that you give, to me You give to me You give to me You give to me
Let's recap to this time last year. I was teasing Jessica for sleeping so much. I was quoted saying to fifi, life is too short, I don't want to waste my time sleeping.
Gosh, how much a year can change a person.
Today was photo taking day. They didn't even informed us like, a day before or something, it was just, TODAY AFTER RECESS TAKE CLASS PHOTO!!!!! Then everybody was worrying about their hair. Even the guys. Then when taking the photo that time, donno which joker was like going, Eh! Everybody take photo must smile nice nice arh!! Graduating already!! Photo publish in yearbook got colour one!!! Then mdm lim turned around and said, yah, got colour one. *chuckles*
So during ELDDS, Melissa asked me to be her "gan jie" as in god sis. I rejected her flat. Right away. Don't even need time for consideration. And for those of you who heard me rejecting her, just let me justify myself before even opening your bloody mouth.
1-She is not sincere. You don't just go around asking people who are older than you but whom you don't really know well to be your god siblings. 2-Because of insincerity, you know that the person in question is just following a trend. A fad. Just so that she can have something [or someone] to boast to their peers about.
So there. And I was sitting down on the floor backstage, bothering no one, when the wing/curtain suddenly attacked me. For awhile I thought there was some sort of invisible force present, but no, it was just adam and ian mock fighting backstage. *cues lots of apologies* Got a bruise on my leg now, thanks alot guys.
On the way home, I saw Ketchup with this girl in school uniform as well, and I kinda wanted to disturb him, so I went up to him and said, eh, dating arh?!?!? *wriggles eyebrows* Then he looked appaled and gasped, "She's my sister!!"
Ooops. Kekekekekekekeke.
So I came home, crashed onto the bed [I was EXTREMELY TIRED] blasted my MP3, and fell asleep halfway through Panic! At the Disco's rendition of Karma Police. I didn't even realise. The next thing I know is my dad knocking furiously on my door in an attempt to wake me up. I glanced blearily at my alarm clock...and oh shit! It's already nine!!!!
New song new song!!! Cupid's Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes featuring Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy!! And twin, actually the song was released in year 2005 with their second album, The Papercut Chronicles. It was in the re-release of As Cruel As School Children, which was out sometime last year. ((:
A minute of perfection was worth the effort. A moment was the most you could ever expect from perfection.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I swear, one of these days, my mouth is gonna get me into some big trouble.
Maths is horrible. So is physics. Can't understand a single thing on electricity. Food and Nutrition is beyond hope, and mid years are only weeks away.
Somebody kill me.
Monday, April 09, 2007
My two favorite lyricists. ((:
I have like, totally no inspiration to blog nowadays. Class perfomance was ok I guess. But I think I kinda pissed Mdm Lim off cos my costume is not really traditional and stuff. )):
ARGH!!! ELDDS SCHEDULE IS SO DEMANDING!!!!
But then again, SYF is coming soon. Oh well. I get exempted from STARS, remedials, and CIP. Orals as well. How cool.
I just realised something. Sometimes people are really good to me and I don't appreciate them. Some guys I know have been really sweet to me, helping me in lots of ways, but what did I do? Gosh, I feel so ashamed sometimes. How can I be so superficial?
Ok, I promised my friend I'd help to advertise this forum. It is created for us, and we can talk about anything under the sun there. Promise me you'll all check it out ok? And don't be afraid to register as well.
Has anyone watched "A Walk To Remember"? It is actually a book, then it was adapted to screenplay. It is one of the sweetest movie I've ever seen. The whole thing is just so saccharine sweet, but yet so bitter at the same time. Its a pity that the girl has to die in the end. She was the reason why the guy changed his lousy character.
I think that the greatest thing a girl can do is to make a guy change his ways for her.
Ok I know this post is like, totally random, so shall stop here.
THE girl
Sophie Hong
15 going on 16
28 dec
ROCK CULTURE
Piss off if you don't like me, I won't grieve over the loss
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Ok I know this post is like, totally random, so shall stop here.
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