I wish I could react the way like Gerard Way did in this video if I ever got back a test or an assignment with an F. But sad to say, I'd probably go overdose on sleeping pills or something. I wish I could stop being so uptight, but I can't. Its my o level year and I'm still kinda stumbling around in the dark. I feel that the only reason I can get answers correct is because I tripped upon them accidentally. On the taxi home yesterday Ian was boasting about how he got an A1 in maths last year but failed everything else. Tien Ee was saying something about always having two subjects underlined in his report card. [which means you fail the subject] Then they asked me about my results. I said I've never failed anything last year and never got anything below a C.
The looks on their faces....gosh. But to tell the truth, I'm jealous. I wish I could be as carefree as them, but I can't. Ian pointed out that if you cannot get in anywhere in singapore, there is always the option of flying over to the states. I don't have that option. I'm not as rich as he is. I really need to do well this year, but its all looking bleak. Maths teacher is forever missing, and we're falling behind other classes. Food and Nutrition is screwed, and I don't understand a thing at all in Science, which is one of my stronger subjects.
I don't think I can make it through this year alive. Either I am going to worry myself to death, die from paronia, or chopped to pieces by my parents.
Oh yeah, my parents think I'm anorexic. They say I don't eat much nowadays and I'm often skipping meals. Truth is, I can't keep anything down my throat anymore. The pressure is making me throw up everything I eat.
THE girl
Sophie Hong
15 going on 16
28 dec
ROCK CULTURE
Piss off if you don't like me, I won't grieve over the loss
